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Turning and seeing his face,
I feel my heart start glowing
though it is not me whom he looks at.
He looks at the one beside me.
My closest friend.
They share a smile, but Oh, there is so much meaning behind it.
I feel my heart dimming until it is black and cold.
I'm frozen, and I shatter.
My friend glances away, blushing.
He can't keep his eyes off of her.
My heart aches.
The edges peeling back like dry brittle newspapers, curling in on itself.
Opening more and more wounds.
the glances, the smiles shared, are like salt, being poured into my wounds.
It hurts, but I act as if though I'm fine.
When inside of me there is so much chaos and hurt,
I can't find myself.
I smile at my friend and tell her that I think he likes her. For I knew that was what she wanted to hear.
She blushes, and says "Yea, I've noticed that too."
The night ends with fake smiles, hugs, and laughs on my behalf, and I know
that I go homewith a broken heart.
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The next night my friend calls and squeals.
"I'm his girlfriend! I'm his girlfriend!"
"Who?" I ask,
although my heart already knew the answer.
She says his name and it echoes through me.
She continues talking to me, but I don't hear her.
It's as if though I'm listening to her through a tunnel. I breathe in,
a small shallow breath, trying to calm the hysteria rising in me like lava through a volcano.
I congratulate her and tell her I'm so happy for her. A lie, I wasn't happy at all.
Far from it.
Then I say good night and hang up.
With her all blissful and I all broken and crushed.
It hurts too much to think of them together.
NO, NO, NO, THIS IS ALL WRONG!! my mind and heart scream.
I'm sobbing now.
It was I, I who was to be in his mind.
But it will be my friend, who will be in hi s mind.
It feels as if though glass is being scraped up along the walls of my heart.
Each breath brings another burst of pain.
I crawl into my bed, pulling the sheets up to my chin.
and I start soaking in my pain and misery, and my tears.
I cry and cry.
Letting all my tears flow out of me.
The pain and hurt wash over me.
Then peaceful silence.
I'm asleep and I remember no more...
until dawn breaks and I awake...
Then I remember.
I feel my heart start glowing
though it is not me whom he looks at.
He looks at the one beside me.
My closest friend.
They share a smile, but Oh, there is so much meaning behind it.
I feel my heart dimming until it is black and cold.
I'm frozen, and I shatter.
My friend glances away, blushing.
He can't keep his eyes off of her.
My heart aches.
The edges peeling back like dry brittle newspapers, curling in on itself.
Opening more and more wounds.
the glances, the smiles shared, are like salt, being poured into my wounds.
It hurts, but I act as if though I'm fine.
When inside of me there is so much chaos and hurt,
I can't find myself.
I smile at my friend and tell her that I think he likes her. For I knew that was what she wanted to hear.
She blushes, and says "Yea, I've noticed that too."
The night ends with fake smiles, hugs, and laughs on my behalf, and I know
that I go homewith a broken heart.
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The next night my friend calls and squeals.
"I'm his girlfriend! I'm his girlfriend!"
"Who?" I ask,
although my heart already knew the answer.
She says his name and it echoes through me.
She continues talking to me, but I don't hear her.
It's as if though I'm listening to her through a tunnel. I breathe in,
a small shallow breath, trying to calm the hysteria rising in me like lava through a volcano.
I congratulate her and tell her I'm so happy for her. A lie, I wasn't happy at all.
Far from it.
Then I say good night and hang up.
With her all blissful and I all broken and crushed.
It hurts too much to think of them together.
NO, NO, NO, THIS IS ALL WRONG!! my mind and heart scream.
I'm sobbing now.
It was I, I who was to be in his mind.
But it will be my friend, who will be in hi s mind.
It feels as if though glass is being scraped up along the walls of my heart.
Each breath brings another burst of pain.
I crawl into my bed, pulling the sheets up to my chin.
and I start soaking in my pain and misery, and my tears.
I cry and cry.
Letting all my tears flow out of me.
The pain and hurt wash over me.
Then peaceful silence.
I'm asleep and I remember no more...
until dawn breaks and I awake...
Then I remember.
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Suicide
Slash my wrists
Slit my throat
Feeling the drain of blood
Feeling empty
Days long past passing before my eyes
Have no feeling now
I see nothing but black
No fire, no bright light
No nothing
Just Nothing
Nothing exists after death
Noting not you, and not me
Nothing
Than I awake
With the blade still in my hand
Untouched by my blood
I put it down and walked into the black abyss
Called life.
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Suicidal
How could you know?
How could you possibly understand?
The hurt I feel,
With a blade in my hand.
I hunger for pain,
It cuts deep in my veins,
Crying every night--
Don't come closer,
I might just bite!
Blood gushing and rushing out,
Makes me want to scream and shout
Anger inside, I'm nearly fried.
I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't exist,
I beat myself up with my fists.
Bruises on my face,
I run or I'll be chased.
The sirens are blaring
*Shit!* I start swearing.
In my pocket I pull out a rope
Because I know that for me there's no hope.
Tie it to the bridge, then goes my neck,
Turn my head side to side, just to check.
Jump o
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Depression
Thoughts run through your mind
'I'm a failure, I'm worthless'
Feel like you're being left beind
Invisible to everyone
Your world is just so bleak
You believe words they say
'You're pathetic, unwanted'
You must be that way
Got no one to turn to
Your 'friends' have all gone
They didn't have a clue
Couldn't understand
You slit your wrists, want to die
Through your veins runs despair
Ashamed, it's all your fault
To you life isn't fair
Sat in a corner, tears in your eyes
There's no hep, you're on your own
Force a smile so they don't realise
You just can't cope anymore
That's not true, there's someone there
To help you out, hel
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A friend of mine and I had a crush on the same guy...she ended up getting the dude and I ended up with, well, a broken heart. Kind of pathetic I know but it hurt and these words came to me so I just wrote them down.
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this is so beautiful. I feel your pain :\ but it gets better I promise. there's someone else out there. This piece speaks straight to a persons heart. Its beautiful.